LIFE'S TAPESTRY: u alone are GOD

LIFE'S TAPESTRY: u alone are GOD: "how can we believe that this thing called life is really manuevered by us ALONE.. i mean think about it, do we really think that we have the..."

u alone are GOD

how can we believe that this thing called life is really manuevered by us ALONE.. i mean think about it, do we really think that we have the ability to create our skin, blood, veins, breathe. i sit and look at what i believe to be a total disrespect for OUR CREATOR, and so that i am not sitting in judgement i move.

i want us to take a moment and just look in the mirror at our SPLENDID beautiful being selves. how AWEsome we are. we have layers of skin that protect organs that hold us and keep us. give thanks because u alone are GOD. thank u LORD for considering me this day to bestow your blessings upon. how dare we believe for one moment that we can do this on OUR OWN.. give thanks, give thanks...

GET UP STAND UP

Stand up for your rights.. Don't GIVE UP THE FIGHT.

it is you against the world right? Wrong! The world is yours so if you call it and everything in it to order, then you are letting the POWER that GOD gave you to manifest.

get up stand up and be bravely unstoppable in your mission for love, health, family, community, and GOD. you were born as the first teachers, so teaching you must go. teach your children love by being the epitamy of LOVE. guide them by being a doer and not a talker. remembe they are impressionable and so are you're men. you are very ATTRACTIVE when you are moving.

try not to argue because your children shut down on you when you do, your MAN does too. i was just talking with the sisters in my SISTERS IN THE CIRCLE group (found on f/b ) yesterday that we are the only ones who like to argue back and forth and will bring up things that are three years old.:) just be easy and FLOW.

we carry life from the state of flow, ambiotic fluid, umbillical cords, nine months. babies fight to stay inside our wombs because of peace, so let them feel peace with you outside as well.

the man yearns to be where the baby use to be, so offer him kindness with your words of support. be strong yet tender

you can be strong without being mean and be heard without yelling.

GET up STAND up

MI VIDA

MI VIDA

Has not been that exciting when compared to others… but it has been REWARDING.  I am now on the cusp on all the things that I use to run from.  As a child my mother would say something “heavy this way comes”.  I never understood what she spoke of but now I am finding that those very words follow me and sometimes they chase me down.

WORDS LIKE ME  they chase me down and speak sweet whispers  even when I lay my head to pillow.  They awaken me and cause me to write and write and write.  If you don’t follow what I’m saying words, they awaken me at night.  While the rest of the world is sleeping I am writing , my heart is speaking. Some things I will share a lot of them I wouldn’t dare.  I am a poet… don’t you know it :+)

Now back to what my ummi use to say to me.  The meaning is that I am a big SOUL in a small vessel. Strange, eccentric, not understand, scarred (GOD IS MY ALOE, SALVE, AND COCOA BUTTER)  I will share with you some of my writings.  Come on over to facebook and friend meJ

I am the founder of SISTERS IN THE CIRCLE L.L.C., a group where women of all walks of faith are part of one movemenn to becoming and remaining spiritually free.  I have published a children’s book called PETRA which can be found on amazon, barnes, xlibris, & ingram.

to my surprise

Friday, March 11, 2011

to my surprise

So i first want to say thank you ahmarr, ahli, & shanae for the opportunity & the trust you have in me.

my introduction to parenthood was not planned nor celebrated. it was actually very dissapointing and almost didn't happen.

i was a track runner, debate club participant, the cool chick at school,the good girl,preparing to go into the navy's officer program, and a virgin who had only had sex once. people thought i was gay because i wasn't "giving it up", so i thought i was "safe" u can't get pregnant on your first time,right? what was scary was that my best friends mother was helping me slide in my prom gown and whispered make sure you wear a condom. shouldn't she of been saying keep your legs closed? well that is another blog. :)

"do you have a condom on i said apprehenisvely" and his response was a very planned & manipulated "if you don't trust me then touch it and see". well i wasn't about to do that, i didn't even want to be there. it was the protocall for prom night, or so i was told. if you love him and know you want to be with him forever then you will do what makes him want to stay with you.

well nine months later and after several tears, pains, fits of anger, and an multitude of body eruptions i became a member of the parternship named parenthood. i in one instant went from fear to LOVE in a way that i will never be able to comprehend; explain nor will i ever want to. it is what it is. LOVE, a blessing. more than a feeling or expectation it's a journey, struggle, rites of passage. i in my mind am the best mother in the world because i gave them the best of me, and i continually do so.

see what i thought was the worse thing in the world became my saving grace "to my surprise" i found another vein to my heart and it feeds my soul to this day. i am not one for kudos or accolades but a smile from one of them or seeing them grub down my food is reward and hence an opportunity to breath.

i tell them that i feel like they are my heart walking outside of my body. i can't explain it any better. there is an overwhelming feeling coming over me now as i write these words. for what i thought was for you is really for me. it's a way for my feelings to come up to current time. no one has ever asked me to do something like this and i am honoured. i know that the words that i am typing are an up to date message but will one day be a time capsule reading. i am now imagining the first day they took a step, smiled at me, sang to me or got their first boo boo. i am a nurturer and some may say too much. i tell you one thing for certain and two things for sure they know where they can come WHENEVER needed & that is to the MATRIARCH. GOD loves me so much he gave me them. i am the root of their stength and i will never stop loving, needing, and desiring them. they are me...

just sit and imagine the magnitude of that, you walking around in a younger shell. the fingers, eyes, lips. all an extension of you. i'm in awe. i'm in LOVE and there aint nothing they or anyone can do about it. so i guess they came much

to my surprise..

until the next time
heaven

i am becoming FREE

MI VIDA

Has not been that exciting when compared to others… but it has been REWARDING.  I am now on the cusp on all the things that I use to run from.  As a child my mother would say something “heavy this way comes”.  I never understood what she spoke of but now I am finding that those very words follow me and sometimes they chase me down.

WORDS LIKE ME  they chase me down and speak sweet whispers  even when I lay my head to pillow.  They awaken me and cause me to write and write and write.  If you don’t follow what I’m saying words, they awaken me at night.  While the rest of the world is sleeping I am writing , my heart is speaking. Some things I will share a lot of them I wouldn’t dare.  I am a poet… don’t you know it :+)

Now back to what my ummi use to say to me.  The meaning is that I am a big SOUL in a small vessel. Strange, eccentric, not understand, scarred (GOD IS MY ALOE, SALVE, AND COCOA BUTTER)  I will share with you some of my writings.  Come on over to facebook and friend meJ

I am the foundeer of SISTERS IN THE CIRCLE L.L.C. a group where women of all walks of faith are part of one movemtn to becoming and remaining spiritually free.  I have published a children’s book called PETRA which can be found on amazo