ARE YOU TIRED YET?!?

Well well well, it's been a long time and yet it's gone by rather quickly.

I'm going to get right to the point.  Are you tired?  I don't  mean physically.  I mean emotionally, spiritually, or even mentally?  Being an empath I get the priviledge of feeling energies around me, even through pictures, voice, and by hearing people say names of those they are somehow connected with. YEAH ME lol.

With the world WAKING up people are realizing their value a little bit more and challenging themselves to go further in their AWAKENING process.  i applaud you for taking those tedious steps towards investing in yourself. It's not easy nor is it supposed to be.

You are doing just as your mother did with you, birthing a new being.  That my loves, takes time.  So my suggestion is bathe in it, acklowedge it, and go gentle into the forest.  I love running with the wolves.  It's so safe there.

Now to my sisters who are resisting the transition.  Guess what?  IT'S GOING TO GET YOU EVENTUALLY.  You can not dictate when the birthing will begin.  As we know or will know by either having a child or experiencing another sisters story regarding childbirth, that child comes whether you are ready or not.  They can come out loud and alert or quiet and peaceful.  This is where you are or will be once you settle in to this journey of sisterhood.  It is inevitable.  The tiredness that you feel is your spirit trying to poke her head out.  She's trying to remind you of who you are and who you once were.

THANK YOU VERY MUCH
THANK YOU VERY MUCH
THAT'S THE NICEST THING THAT ANYONE'S EVER DONE FOR ME. LEAVING ME THAT IS.  

GOOD DAY MY BEAUTIFUL SISTERS. HAS ANYONE EVER LEFT YOU,  MADE YOU FEEL LESS THAN WORTHY?  WELL YOU ARE NOT ALONE.  TODAY  I'M WORKING ON HONORING MY INTENTIONS, AND AS I PROMISED I'M WRITING MY BLOG ON LOVE TODAY.   I'M WRITING FROM MY CELL PHONE AND PRAY THAT IT COMES OUT WELL.

SO I SAID MY BEAU AND I WANTED TO SAY THANK YOU TO THOSE WHO LEFT US BEHIND.  TIME SURE WILL HEAL WOUNDS. YOU WILL MORE THAN LIKELY BE REMINDED OFTEN AT FIRST AND THEN NOT SO MUCH OF THE PAIN FROM BREAKUPS BUT PLEASE DON'T GIVE UP ON THE LOVE AND LIFE YOU DESERVE.

I HAD GOTTEN TO A PLACE OF SEE , HEAR AND SPEAK NO EVI.  I WAS OFTEN TOLD IN MY YOUNGER YEARS GIRL MEN GOING TO CHEAT AND DON'T CHASE HIM AWAY AND TAKE HIM HE'S A "GOOD" MAN,  AND SAVE YOUR MONEY IN CASE HE SHOULD LEAVE. .. BLAH BLAH BLAH.  WHEH THAT WAS A MOUTH FULL.  

I LOST MY VOICE,  LET MYSELF GO FOR THE SAKE OF "LOVE". SOUND FAMILIAR? IT'S EASY TO RECOGNIZE NOW,  NOW THAT I'M OUT OF THE WOODS.  OUT OF THE  WOODS BUT NEVER COMPLETELY OUT OF THE MIND.   YOU KNOW THE LOVE THAT YOU THOUGHT WOULD STAY FOREVER.

YOU GAVE THE BEST YOU COULD AT THAT MOMENT.  YOU LOVED THE HARDEST YOU EVER HAD.  YOU BELIEVED.  YOU STAYED DESPITE YOUR INNER SPIRIT SAYING "ABORT,  ABORT". NOT YOU.  YOU'RE NO QUITTER AND WHILE YOU'RE NO QUITTER THE LOVE YOU KNEW QUIT ON YOU. IT SAID ALL YOUR EFFORT WASNT ENOUGH. AT LEAST THAT'S THE MESSAGE YOU RECEIVED.

THAT STUNG RIGHT?  OF COURSE IT DID.
THE STING WILL GO AWAY BUT NOT THE MARK.   IN TIME YOU WILL LEARN AS I DID,  THE POWER OF YOUR VOICE AND LOVE FOR SELF.    LIFE IS REALLY NOT ALL THIS COMPLICATED IF YOU REMEMBER YOUR POWER,  POWER TO LOVE YOURSELF.

BEING A LITTLE SELFISH WITH MY TIME, MY INURGE, MY SPIRIT REVIVAL HAS REAPED ME A FANTASTIC MAN WHO ADORES ME.  HE'S ROUGH AROUND THE EDGES BY THEN AGAIN SO AM EYE.  LOL. ONCE I DECIDED THAT I COME FIRST,  ALL THINGS ARE BEING ADDED.  I DON'T MEAN SELFISH AND CONTROLLING BUT I MEAN SELFISH AND CONTROLLING.  SELFISH WITH BEING HONEST EVEN IF IT STINGSS AT TIME AND CONTROLLING MY SPIRIT. NOT ALLOWING HER TO SETTLE IN ORDER TO BE COMFORTABLE AND SAFE.
REMEMBER THIS IF YOU REMEMBER NOTHING ELSE I SAY TO YOU ..

LOVE IS. .A  DANGEROUS THING.

BUT IT'S SO WORTH IT IF YOU INVEST TIME IN YOURSELF WISELY.   RECOGNIZE WHAT YOUR BAKE IS AND DON'T DEVIATE FROM WHAT YOU DESERVE.  IF HE WANTS TO RUB YOUR FEET, LET HIM, LET HIM LET

HIM.   DON'T USE HIM OR MANIPULATE HIM,  TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF.  HOW YOU CARE FOR YOURSELF WILL ENHANCE HOW HE CARES FOR YOU TOO.   

I HAVE GROWN TO APPRECIATE BEING TREATED LIKE A QUEEN.  IT'S KINDA FUN AND I DO HAVE TO BALANCE IT SO MY EGO DOESN'T GET IN THE WAY.   

EITHER WAY LOVE IS WORK BUT IT ONLY WORKS OF ITS RECIPROCATED.  COMMUNICATE WITH YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR FIRST IF SPEAKING YOUR CONCERNS IS AN ISSUE. DON'T GET HIM AND THEN GET SLOPPY IN YOUR APPEARANCE AND DON'T LET HIM.

 TAKE HIM ON DATES,  GO OUT ON A SELFIE DATE WITH NO ONE BUT YOU.  IT'LL KEEP HIM EXCITED ABOUT YOUR FREEDOM.  MEN DON'T LIKE NEEDY WOMEN AND IF HE WANTED A MAN MS.  "INDEPENDENT" HE COULD GO GET ONE OF THOSE TOO.  :&)

I HOE YOU ENJOYED.  LIGHT LOVE AND LIBERTY

YOUR SISTER IN THE CIRCLE

PRIESTESS HEAVEN

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JOIN THE LOVE REVOLUTION

WHAT IS IT ALL GOOD FOR?

 

GREETINGS MY SISTERS...

IT'S BEEN QUITE SOME TIME.  HOW HAVE YOU ALL BEEN?  REALLY? 

     AS I SIT IN THE LIBRARY TO TYPE THIS I HAVE AN OVERWHELMING QUESTION THAT HAS BEEN SURFACING AND I CAN'T SEEM TO ESCAPE IT, SO I GUESS EMBRACING IS THE ANSWER.

     I'VE BEEN AROUND THE WORLD AND BACK AT LEAST A GAZILLION TIMES.  WITH SO MUCH SPIRITUAL TRAVELING I'VE WONDERED WHY PEOPLE ARE THE WAY THEY ARE AND WHY THEY DO SOME OF THE STRANGEST THINGS ( IN MY OPINION) TO EACH OTHER.  I, LIKE YOU I'M SURE HAVE HAD A VERY BUSY LIFE.  DEALING WITH EVERYONE ELSE'S DRAMA AND ISSUES.  I ALWAYS FOUND A WAY TO "FIX" THEIR ISSUES AND IT WAS TIMELY ENOUGH TO ALLOW ME TO "IGNORE" MINE.  CRISIS DIVERTED WAS MY LANGUAGE.  I NEVER FULLY LOVED OR LIKED ME.

     I GUESS IT WAS BECAUSE OF MY LISTENING TO OTHERS TELL ME AS A GIRL I WAS TOO OPINIONATED, TOO LOUD, TOO INQUISITIVE (NOSY), MY BUTT WAS BIG, MY BREAST WERE LITTLE, MY GAP IN MY TEETH, MY DEEP VOICE.  SO MANY NEGATIVES FROM THOSE WHO SAID THEY LOVED ME.  WHY WOULDN'T A SISTER BE CONFUSED?

     MY UMMI FOUGHT THE GOOD FIGHT THOUGH, CONSTANTLY BEATING DOWN THE WALLS THAT I ALLOWED OTHERS TO BUILD IN MY HEAD.  I GUESS I GOT LAZY AND JUST WENT ALONG TO GET ALONG. 

     NOW TODAY IS A DIFFERENT STORY.  I REALLY LIKE LOVING MYSELF AND I PRACTICE IT MORE AND MORE DAILY.  I LOVE MYSELF SO MUCH THAT I NOW CAN SO "NO" WHEN NECESSARY FOR MY SPIRITUAL SANITY AND SAFETY.  LOOKING BACK I WONDER WHAT IS IT ALL GOOD FOR?  I MEAN THE BEATING UP OF EACH OTHERS SPIRITS, THE STEALING JOY FROM OUR NEIGHBORS, THE BACK BITING, THE LYING, GOSSIPPING, ALL OF IT.  W.I.I.A.G.F.?  DO WE REALLY GAIN BY DESTROYING ONE ANOTHER. ESPECIALLY WOMEN, DO YOU GET A FREE VIXEN CARD THAT NO ONE IS TALKING ABOUT?  WHEN WILL IT END?

     I MEAN WE FIGHT SOCIETY'S CLAIM THAT WE ARE JUST BEINGS WITH A CERVIX AND BREAST, WE FIGHT OUR OWN SELF INFLICTED EMOTIONAL WOUNDS.  YOU KNOW THE ONES WE HOLD ON TO FROM OUR CHILDHOOD?  WHAT IS IT ALL GOOD FOR?  I HAVEN'T GAINED ANY FAVOR FROM CRYING, AND I SURE HAVEN'T KEPT IMPATIENT PEOPLE AROUND.

     PEOPLE WHO BEFRIEND YOU TO GLOAT ABOUT THEIR SELF.  YOU ALL HAVE ONE OR HAVE HAD ONE.  THE SISTER WHO HAS DONE THIS, DONE THAT, BEEN HERE, BEEN THERE AND STILL LIVING DOWN THE STREET FROM YOU.  (GIGGLING). 

     IT'S TIME FOR A REFRESHING OF THE SOUL.  TIME TO CLEANSE OUT THE SPIRITUAL CLOSET, GET THE WEBS OUT.  WHEN YOU APPROACH YOUR DAY I ENCOURAGE YOU TO ASK WHAT IS IT ALL GOOD FOR AND IF YOU DON'T GET AN ANSWER THEN, LET IT BE OR LET THEM BE.  FREEDOM IS GOOD WHEN YOU DECIDE YOU WANT SOME.

 

    IN CLOSING, I WAN TYOU TO GO LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND LAUGH, JUST LAUGH AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS.  DON'T STOP LOOKING AT YOURSELF, AND WRITE AS SOON AS SOON AS YOU STOP CRYING.  LET GO OF THE GOOK AND ALL THE CROOKS THAT CAME INTO YOUR LIFE.  THEY CAME BECAUSE YOU AGREED TO THEM BEING THERE IN SOME TYPE OF SPIRITUAL CAPACITY.  NOW IF YOU WHAT TO NO LONGER ASK THE QUESTION WHAT IS IT ALL GOOD FOR, THEN FREE YOU MIND, AND THE REST WILL FOLLOW.

 

LOVINGLY

 

PRIESTESS HEAVEN

SISTERS IN THE CIRCLE.

FOCUS

Namaste All:  Have you ever lost your focus and fought to get it back?  Well boy do I have a quick guide for you.  This will take a few minutes of your time and it's quite painless...I PROMISE:)  also please take the time to leave constructive comments.  I really appreciate your time and have a most blessed week.

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did you gift it away?

sisters.

what would you you do if after working all day ,being patient with rude people,guarding your tongue and looking at your checking account (to see a slap on the face after the decimal point)  you go to the   look at the prices and process frustration starts again.  there is a person coming in line but you were obviously first and you are sort of  pushed aside.  the cashier then states that you can come to the front since you were there first and the sweet person you are reluctantly decline so you wont cause a stir. 

the customer finishes with their purchase and out the clear grey sky......ding  ding ding, congratulations you sir are OURth customer.  you just won a year of free groceries with a 500.00 monthly limit and any residual balance will go to your personal checking  account.  you know the checking account with the slapping decimal points at the end of your balance.

have you ever done it?  have you given your blessings away?   told G-d no thank you.  every time you turn away a blessing you are setting someone else up for what was allocated with you in mind.

don't feel bad for we all have  done it, we've all been there second guessing ourselves.  when were we taught that thinking about our own well being is toxic.  i know there is a balance but you are strong enough to get their. you can get to the place where you give to you and distribute to others after.  see if your temple is not healthy how will you teach someone about health.  if your temple is not clean how will you teach anyone that they can come off of drugs.  we have to FREE our self and the stigma associated with caring for ourselves.  if you are sick and a single mother with no family who will care for your children?  if you are the bread winner for  your home and you let someone have your car because they want to go on a job interview, they don't come back on time who will clock in for you?

get yourself to a healthy place of thinking of you.  i... insert name here do promise my self that i will work diligently on taking care of me. go ahead.  say it.  now take this time to think about some of the things that you have 'GIFTED' away and start to focus on being faithful to yourself.  if others view you as the person who will sacrifice more than they are accustomed to receiving eventually their appreciation will go to a sense of entitlement and self gratification.  you are a blessing, you are in measurable, and you deserve the same loving care you distribute.  so from now on appreciate yourself and celebrate the gift that you are to you.  remember you were created perfectly which means you can have the best.

namaste' kindred sisters....  

WHEN IS

namaste' kindred:

it is has been some time since i shared my thoughts.  so how has everyone been?  i pray you embrace your change with grace, diligence, freedom and last but not least, LOVE.

WHEN IS......

so i was witnessing someone on and in the process of celebrating their anniversary.  there was another women who was having an anniversary as well but could not celebrate with her love due to extenuating circumstances.  i will get straight to the point.  how can we be so numb to feeling some one else who is in pain, especially in our joy?  I am in no certain terms suggesting that we relinquish our joy for their pain but to be mindful and considerate that all experiences are valid.  there is a balance between celebrating your joy and empathizing with someone who is not joyous.  it is called compassion!  we must be compassionate with one another.  considerate. aware. alert. neighborly.

maybe if we barter with universe things would clear up for us ALL.  let's barter hurt for healing, pain for purpose, anger for peace, clutter for cleanliness.  these are mere examples but they still impede our journey.  i am now more comfortable with my life challenges and i do have battles with the scars that others attempt to leave on me. i too am a work in progess. G_d's love is my salve, ointment, elixir, balm, tourniquet, medicine, and my band aid.  i have to just ingest, apply, and let it work.

are we wrong for wanting more?  NAH!  when you miss sight of your blessings are you saying "no thank you" to the universe?  are we saying we don't deserve better?  many of us hold ourselves hostage.  we don't grab our potential blessings.  most people know whether they can be with a person once they start to spend quality time with them.  we sometimes get into the role of becoming like bounty paper towels "the quicker picker upper/fixer upper".  we CAN NOT fix ANYONE.  they must submit to whatever it is that is holding them hostage and give it to G_d.  only G_d can fix them but they must be willing to put in the work.  even after raising children we can not fix them.  now while our souls alarm has rung and said NO this is not the person/job/ opportunity for you why do we go further.  why are we allowing others to block our potential?  could it be because we have become accustomed to not having?

these are a lot of questions; yes i know but sit and ask yourself?  look in the mirror and ask yourself.  am i deserving of better?  do i truly want better?  only you can answer this and if you can not at this time  i suggest you go deeper.  so MANY people scared me from the idea of marriage.  i was listening to people who were coming to me for advice on their relationships (me the woman who was the spiritual dumping ground for ALL OF MY RELATIONSHIPS).  lied to, lied on, and blah blah blah.  i'm sure all of us women and men alike can attest to the pain associated with betrayal.  i was a waste land amid LIFE.  ironic i know but TRUE nonetheless.  there were people who were/are in relationships for years and here they come with their personal dramas as  i was embarking on taking a chance on LOVE YET AGAIN.  straight confusion and G_d is not the author of such.  after years of becoming accustomed to someone's scent, mannerisms, etc.,  i GAVE UP and LOVE CAME BACK TO VISIT with me yet again.LOVE CAME BACK and TOOK ME OVER.  but the enemy of my life which is the opposite of who i am came and disguised my helping people as a tool to get me to NOT BELIEVE AGAIN.  my thought was how in the world am i going to make it if these people can't even get it together?  why am i being approached with these issues?  where were these people when "my man" left me?  i had a real break through.

have you been there?  been in a place where you are fighting for your survival and here comes your kryptonite? the very thing i was BEAT UP WITH and was fearful of (LOVE) was being threatened with others haphazard ways.  i had to SEPARATE myself from the venom that was leaking from their tongues.  THEY HAD NO CLUE that they were being used to slow my PROCESS and to explain it to them would be to no avail.  sometimes beloved you will know when you will not have to explain yourself.  YOU WILL JUST MOVE.  cut people off, jobs off, thought processes off.  YOU WILL HAVE TO GET FREE.  you can sit and pacify a person and their ego but in the long run joy is for everyone but only those who receive it will live with it.  so in other words if a person is not sucking life out of you then they will eventually find someone else to suck life from. 

it was terrifying to me because i AM/WAS a people PLEASER. it's a balancing act.  i have to figure out if pleasing someone will help or hinder me and my growth.   i cared what everyone felt and i want good for them all.  BELOVED IF I DON'T WANT GOOD FOR MYSELF, what else MATTERS?  PLEASE I  ask you to WANT better for yourself.  you so deserve it.  do not insult G_d when blessings are given you.  ACCEPT them ALL... everyone.  so tell me...

WHEN IS